Over the past two weeks, I'd been getting sudden awful headaches that I described as "the side of my head being torn open." They were impossible to manage. When one struck when I was driving I almost drove off the highway twice, so I had to exit. And then I pulled into a plaza and then I turned off the engine and clambered into the back seat and rolled into the fetal position. And then it lifted some amount of time later and I drove home.
Later, my mother asked, "What'd you do to yourself?" I was getting dressed for bed. Up and down the length of both arms were angry red trails of torn skin and half-moons filled with dried blood. "I scratched myself up...I guess." I said weakly. I didn't mean to, per se. The pain was just that bad. Piggybacking on my usual under-medicated 6/10 these headaches were so bad I just unknowingly scratched the hell out of myself.
I managed to get in to see a dentist, but the pain isn't from a bad tooth or an abscess like I suspected. So what is causing this fever, malaise, splitting headache, loss of appetite....?
I must be sick with something else. For the first time in several years, I'm sick on top of sick. What could it be? A sinus infection? That's the only other thing I can think of that would cause both a fever and such a severe headache. It's not meningitis because...meningitis is not so polite as to give her victims two weeks. That's not how she rolls.
I have to say, I'm not liking it. As to doing something about it, my primary care doctor is a jewel. She is such a jewel that she doesn't have any openings, even for emergencies until March. The secretary recommended I go to one of those drugstore clinics, but you have to pay up front for those, and I'm tapped out from seeing the dentist!
So my choices are to get better or to get so sick I have to go to the emergency room.
Wellness or sepsis. Essentially.
Pray for me, y'all.
If you have a third option, please leave it in the comments, thanks.