Monday, November 14, 2011
I'm going to update quickly and without much of my usual finesse for time's sake. Well, my GI problems from October continued to get worse until my nausea was so severe I couldn't even get enough water down. I was so miserable, always half dehydrated and feeling like I would dry heave any second. So eventually I got hospitalized twice. The first time I was too dehydrated to get an IV in any of my peripheral veins, so they drilled a central line in my chest. This really hurt. I passed the gastric emptying test, so I was falsely buoyed, thinking the whole thing was an episode that would just blow over. But as soon as I was discharged I went right back to being as sick as before and it only took two days before I was admitted again, to a different hospital. The tentative verdict is chronic migraine. Which I really, really want to be true so my problem can be "what should I eat to gain back ten pounds?" instead of, "how do I keep from accidentally dying of thirst/starvation/electrolyte imbalance?" I have a feeling of deep unrest in my body. Even sitting here now, in my own room, at my familar desk, listening to familiar music. Something feels awry. I'm tired of moving from one crisis to another with EDS. I just want to live.